Tuesday 16 June 2009
Hello world!
So it's Tuesday and i'm still feeling the effects of the weekend. It was my bezzy mates birthday on Saturday and needless to say, we were all a tad drunk. Actually, that's sort of the understatement of the century. It was sooo bad that I have actually declared my own abstinence against alcohol. No more poisoning my body with the intoxicating devil juice. Never again. None of my friends seem to believe me when I say this, but really and truly. Not drinking again. I have one friend who has promised to drink virgin cocktails with me on Saturday night though, so at least I know i'm not going to turn into a complete bore!
I've been feeling a bit "funky" for a while now (and not in a 'get down and boogie' way either). My body has gradually been telling me to slow down and that something was wrong, and finally it has given up the ghost. For those of you who don't know me too well, I am a bit of an ice queen when it comes to showing my emotions and most times it can look like i'm not caring about anything, when actually I have just been trying to deal with it on my own. The problem with that is that because I am holding it inside and not expressing myself is that alot of hurt and upset and suppressed emotion lays heavily inside me. I am aware this is a personal issue that I have to deal with (alot of it being misplaced pride) and the only way I can do that is by healing. This, I am praying about and allowing God to come heal me. So please keep me in your prayers. It's not going to be an easy task, but I know that I will be a better person for it.
Yay - my BFF at work (didn't have one until 10 minutes ago!) has bought me a gift.....RAINBOW DROPS!! Please see previous posts to understand what this means to me! I'm sooo happy right now!
Catch you on the flipside!
So it's Tuesday and i'm still feeling the effects of the weekend. It was my bezzy mates birthday on Saturday and needless to say, we were all a tad drunk. Actually, that's sort of the understatement of the century. It was sooo bad that I have actually declared my own abstinence against alcohol. No more poisoning my body with the intoxicating devil juice. Never again. None of my friends seem to believe me when I say this, but really and truly. Not drinking again. I have one friend who has promised to drink virgin cocktails with me on Saturday night though, so at least I know i'm not going to turn into a complete bore!
I've been feeling a bit "funky" for a while now (and not in a 'get down and boogie' way either). My body has gradually been telling me to slow down and that something was wrong, and finally it has given up the ghost. For those of you who don't know me too well, I am a bit of an ice queen when it comes to showing my emotions and most times it can look like i'm not caring about anything, when actually I have just been trying to deal with it on my own. The problem with that is that because I am holding it inside and not expressing myself is that alot of hurt and upset and suppressed emotion lays heavily inside me. I am aware this is a personal issue that I have to deal with (alot of it being misplaced pride) and the only way I can do that is by healing. This, I am praying about and allowing God to come heal me. So please keep me in your prayers. It's not going to be an easy task, but I know that I will be a better person for it.
Yay - my BFF at work (didn't have one until 10 minutes ago!) has bought me a gift.....RAINBOW DROPS!! Please see previous posts to understand what this means to me! I'm sooo happy right now!
Catch you on the flipside!
Labels: Addiction, God, resolutions
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